Relationships [and related things]

[Amiee♥TH]

I LOVE YOU TOO.

[stephnehh]

yesterday my MUM and a girl from work ran out to him and were like 'you, stop copying her hair ;D' and he was like 'i can't help it! like i've told her, she's my inspiration!'
and today i was like crap, ive got to say sorry
so he was coming back from lunch so when he came to say hi i was like 'omg i'm so sorry?!' and he was like 'aww no don't be! nothing to be sorry for! ' and i was like :3
then 2 seconds later the girl came down from her lunch and told me she was speaking to him and to make conversation mentioned me and said to him 'yeah hayley said you were gonna cut all your hair off! but you can't, stephanie will be devasated, you're her inspiration ' and he just went all embarassed and was like 'well she's my inspiration :3' and i was like OMGOMG *dies*

sorry for posting so much! but he's gorgeous and these things really mean NOTHING but it keeps me amused :3

[NaomiOfC]

no, it's cute :')

[NaomiOfC]

i’ve been denying it since the start, but i do miss you. & it’s like you don’t care. just. i want to talk to you like we used to. please be okay with me on saturday, i just miss you & how we used to be.
i think you’d be happy to know that i’m okay with how i look now cuz i know how much my insecurities pissed you off. & i get the feelings they’re the reason you wanted the break in the first place & college is just a cover up. just give me chance to explain how i feel about this & maybe, just maybe give us another chance? the insecurities are gone & college is over. it’s summer, let’s have fun together.
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i posted this on tumblr, but yh. i'm feeling pretty shitty with what's going on with me & andy right now he sent me a text on saturday saying "have a great birthday naomi!! xx" i was surprised at the "xx" cuz before when we text during the break, i got none. i invited him to my 18th but i'm not surprised that he didn't come cuz it was a bbq at mine then he'd be staying over & he'd just feel plain awkward & just yh. & in the text, i got the feeling he wanted a conversation but just, i was so busy with getting everything ready that i didn't have time to text him so all i said was "thank you x" blahh, i regret not saying more then that now. i see him on saturday tho at a Mash Up with our friends & you know that feeling you get when you're seeing the guy you like & you feel like something is going to happen with them? i have that & it's not the bad feeling, i just want saturday to get here so i can see what happens between us.

if i hadn't of lost my virginity to him, i properly wouldn't find it so hard to lose him. i wasn't in love with him cuz we weren't together long & with my past relationships, i try not to get too attached too soon, but yh. i liked him a lot & now my feelings are how i felt for him when we first met; i liked him & was attracted to him & wanted to get to know him. i just want to talk with andy about how we feel & where to go from here before i give up on him completely.

blahhhh, i just want to be in his arms again so bad, no one understands that :'/

[Amiee♥TH]

I think it's always a lot harder to 'get over' people when you've lost your virginity to them and you're in a relationship at the time cus you know, losing it is kinda a big thing. Hope it's good for you when you see him though Nom! Also, I didn't know you were out of a relationship? I'm seriously out of the loop.

In other news, I still have a very stale love life and it's getting to me.

[NaomiOfC]

we went a break amiee :'/ he said he was struggling to cope with college & the stress was getting to him & the way he was acting, he didn't think it was fair on me. & then the next day, i got an inbox from him saying that he'd been thinking about me all day & that he still wants to be with me, & then i saw him a week later & he wouldn't even look at me, yet he said to my best friend "is naomi mad at me? i don't want her to be mad at me, i want her to be okay with me. she means a lot to me but i'm not ready for a commitment just yet" but he wouldn't even look at me? idk. but like i said, i get that butterfly feeling everytime i think of seeing andy this weekend & i feel like something is going to happen this weekend. but we'll be drunk so i'm not going to believe his words, but if something happens then something happens, we'll talk about it afterwards, or we'll talk beforehand.

but like you said, it's harder when you lose your virginity to them. but like, we were seeing each other for three weeks, meaning we were kissing & "doing things" with each other for 3 weeks before we made it official & then i lost it to him & yeah. i cheated on nathan with him too, so it looks bad on my part if we end completely after this short of time. i don't mind if we just "see each other" like before, friends with benefits or something, i just miss spending time with him & just, everything about him. he thought he wasn't good enough for me, but it was fucking perfect :'/

gahhhhh!

[Amiee♥TH]

Sometimes the truth comes out when drunk though so don't just push his words aside, if you're not too drunk to remember them that is. Most people tend to use being drunk as an excuse to get away with things and such but really they're usually speaking there mind.

On another note, have you actually said all of this to him, like you just miss his company or whatever? Maybe he needs to know and hopefully things will work out for you guys. I hope they will at least!

[NaomiOfC]

yh i know that. i have a very feminine male friend & last time we did this Mash Up thing, he said to me, my best friend & our friend matt "I'm gay", but still denies it so we're trying to get him drunk again to see if he says it again, but that's beside the point.

yh, i'm hoping we'll have a talk when on saturday, but i'll just makes hints. i haven't said it to him yet, but i'd have thought he'd have gotten the hints i've been giving off. & i said stuff to matt & matt has known andy for like, 2 years so i'm sure matt would've said something to him. i dunno. just gunna wait for saturday now. gahh, pretty nervous for it now :/

[Amiee♥TH]

Don't stress over it or worry, I know that's a lot easier said than done but seriously, try not to, just go and have fun!

[NaomiOfC]

i'm not gunna do that cuz it will more then likely ruin my night. i'll just tell you all what happened on sunday

[Amiee♥TH]

Yes, do so! Spill the beans then

[NaomiOfC]

we love our gossip

[NaomiOfC]

okay so, i got absolutely smashed last night so i don't really remember what exactly happened, but what i do remember:

we were at a park & he was like, all quiet & so i asked him if he was okay & found out that his best mate has gone off with his ex girlfriend. andy's ex girlfriend messed him around like, to the point where she left him in a mess & he knows that she's gunna do the same to his best mate but his mate won't listen to what he has to say.

we were talking at the park & was like "i'm so glad everythings okay between, i didn't want things to be awkward" & i was like "it would never be awkward between us tho" & he was like

in the woods where the actual 'drinking session' was, he was all quiet & distant so i gave him space, i didn't want to hound him & stuff. & then at about 10pm, i was getting tipsy & he was sat on this log near the bonfire & i sat in front of the bonfire near the log & andy went "naomi come sit up here with me" & i was like "but i've sat down now" & he laughed at me, but i got up & sat with him anyway. & then i said "andy? i think we rushed things between. i don't think either of us were ready for a relationship yet. you were still getting over jodie & i had just broken up with nathan after cheating on him" & he was like "i totally agree with you, i'm just not ready for a commitment right now" which to me says that he still wants to be with me but not yet? & he also said "i'm not going off with other girls tho" which gives me hope. & then we were talking about just everything as if nothing had happened between us & it was proper nice & then he started flirting with me & moving closer to me & bumping his knee with mine & just, ugh it was so nice :3 & then he went off to the lads to do this rap thing, idek :L & when i got home this morning, i was looking at the pictures & there's me like, leaning on andy's leg or having my arms around his leg as i'm sat on the floor & he's standing behind me & there's some of us sat next to each other in the background of the picture clearly cuddling & stuff. i don't remember us cuddling or anything cuz i had blacked out at this point & had no idea what was going but yh, i'm in a happy mood right now cuz everything between andy & i is okay & just, yh. giving him time to get through these troubles before seeing what happens but yh.

people have told me we were flirting & get proper close last night so yh :3

[NaomiOfC]

so. some of my friends, including andy, went to wales the other week. the ones who went have known each other since at least year 7 & some of them are off to uni in september so they went away together. matt told me, when he was back, that andy was emotional all week & just being really unsociable.

when i had depression, i was just like that, which makes me wonder if andy has depression which is why he feels like he can't be in a relationship atm.

he knows about how i used to be depressed so you'd think it's be good for him to be with someone who's been through it all before, right?

ugh, hate guys.

[Amiee♥TH]

Doesn't always work like that, just because someone else has experienced depression, doesn't mean it can help the person possibly suffering with it now. Everyone works in different ways, sometimes people actually need space to overcome it but just be there for him if he does come to you for help ect.